Friday, November 26, 2010

Great Expectations

What in the world do I have to complain about? When I sit down and make a gratitude list, I can easily fill pages of blessings that God’s given me. So why do I get disappointed when things don’t go my way? Because I’m self-centered. Because my needs aren’t met. Because I don’t get the result I fantasize about in my mind. Because I invest more faith in men than trusting God. And perhaps because my expectations are too great.
Not getting what I think I want always comes back to selfishness and the need to revise and manage my expectations. I’m reminded that I need to evaluate my insecurities, as well as my role in contributing to the desired or undesired result. How did my actions and unrealistic expectations create a flow of misinterpretations to my brain?
I’m not suggesting that I shouldn’t ever have expectations about an event or a family gathering or a friendship or relationship or job or whatever it might be. I’m merely saying I need to understand how much “self” influences the reality of the situation and realize the world doesn’t revolve around me and my every desire. My focus should be on pleasing and honoring God and putting others first.
If I were to care more about how another person’s needs might be fulfilled, how to make their day, and how to pour my love out to them, I imagine that my own “Great Expectations” would no longer seem that important. I’ve seen God demonstrate His greatness in mind-blowing ways that have nothing to do with expectations I’ve created. I just have to put self aside and allow Him to do His work in me.

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Put the Past to Rest

“Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past.” Isaiah 43:18
Have you done things in your life that you still feel guilty about? Things you haven’t been able to let go even though you’ve turned them over to God.
If I’m ashamed of something, I know that I’m not going to be able to accept God’s best for me if I don’t take Him at His word when He says He’s forgiven me for something after I’ve asked Him to. He’s constantly refining me with fire, carving away at all the nonsense in my life to make me more like Christ.
Therefore, I must move on after I’ve laid things on the table for Him to take away. I can’t rely on my “feelings” or else I’ll never “feel” forgiven. I have to trust that I am because He says so. And God doesn’t lie.
God slowly reveals Himself to me during my trials and in times of pain. It’s as if He doesn’t want to overwhelm me with all that He is at one time, and so He lets me in on a little at a time, making me long for more.
The past is the past. It’s a part of who I am, and I’m thankful for it because it’s brought me closer to Christ and given me a relationship with Him I never knew was possible. The past makes me completely dependent on the Lord. The past causes me to be passionate about the present. And now when the past pays me a visit – because it’s been put to rest – it’s enlightening and exciting. It means God is up to something good.