A Prayer for Idolization

Lord, I don’t know what to do.

I believed you had delivered me

that I’d never do it again

but here I am, in the depths of sin.

How did this happen?

I thought I was free

Of the chains that bound

so tightly around me

I made a mistake,

Which I know you’ll forgive.

The problem is I’m human and tired

My patience, expired.

What is it you want to teach me?

I’m willing to grow and learn

I’m trying to use your strength

A traveler on this earth, I now sojourn

I didn’t mean to shut you out,

I longed for relief from frustration

over a battle I need not fight

I fell weak in desperation

And missed the path you tried to light

I need your help,

I don’t want to go down this road again.

I won’t survive in my own strength

Please provide your grace and mercy

That’s end has no length

I don’t want to run from you,

I know you’re here with me

That is my belief,

Through the chronic pain I feel,

You will comfort me with relief

You will guard me and protect me

You will keep me under your wing

Even though I’m weak and fail

It’s your praises I continue to sing

I desire you’re best for my life

Knowing you do out of necessacity

Replacing joy and comfort when  

What’s needed is strife.

Your thoughts are not mine,

To your will I do resign

You have my heart

And I know you’re on my side

Please give me a fresh start